Have What it Takes to be A University Graduate?

Assalamualaikum,

Do You Have What It Takes To Be A University Graduate?

Was a question asked to me by my English lecturer recently. It kinda knocked my mind a bit actually hha. It made many more questions popped up in my head. Questions like "Am I actually ready for University life?", "Am I ready to live on my own at the United States?", "Do I actually qualify to be given the chance to study at the US?" and finally the main question itself, Do I Have What it Takes To Be A University Graduate?

I know before I answer the main question above, I would have to answer all the questions that had came up in my head first or else my mind wouldn't be at peace*LOL but seriously hha*. These questions I believe, actually are in everyone's mind but are kept at the furthest most place in their minds. After sometime, I believe I finally have the answers for all those questions. It took quite sometime you know, to convince myself. To convince myself of my own answers, my own resolve.

So here goes, for the question "Am I actually ready for University life?", My answer would be, Yes. Simply because I really believe I can manage myself properly when I'm in university. 5 years of boarding school life had taught me more than enough experience on how to survive without my parents constantly by my side. The valuable experiences I gained throughout those years are the most important part of me that helped to ready myself for tertiary education life.

Next, for the question "Am I ready to live on my own at the United States?". My answer is Yes. Yes I'm ready. We will never actually live on our own actually :). I was quite scared*cuak kot* at first. To think that I would be living all alone over there*The United States* by myself. Then I took a look at my friends, and I know by then that I will never be alone. I am never alone, there would be friends who will help me over there. Friends that I could count on, just like in the MRSM's and KKTM and all throughout my life. I always found a person that I could really count on, to be by my side whenever I'm in need.

Count on my friends

Furthermore, "Do I qualify to be given the chance to study in the US?". Another Yes. I believe that I had given my all throughout my life and I deserve to be in this MARA ADP Program. All my efforts and the way I had overcame all the challenges in my life up untill this point, I can say that I do qualify to be given this rare chance. Eventhough there were ups and downs, I never really gave up and kept on striving*Believe me it was not all flowers in my life peeps*. I will always find a way to solve the problems that I encounter. That is why to me, anyone who never gave up are the ones who qualify for everything. It's not the results that counts, It's the effort.

Finally, for the main question "Do I have What It Takes to be A University Graduate?", the answer is Yes. The answers for the other questions above explains it all. I have a really strong resolve. I have friends and people whom I could truly count on including myself. I never gave up through out my life, never backed down from challenges. That is why I have the believe, I believe that I Do Have What It Takes to be A University Graduate. Because in my opinion, the most important thing is to believe in yourself. Even if it seems impossible, Believe in yourself, Believe in Allah. InsyaAllah you will overcome all those challenges in your life.

  

The Value of Gratefulness

Assalamualaikum,

Things have been playing in my thoughts. As humans, we should really be grateful with what we have. Instead of counting our miseries, we should be counting our gifts. It occured to me that some people*including me sometimes* kept whining whenever bad things happened. Actually, we need and we must be grateful with what we have.

During the recent Raya celebrations, I visited my uncle who was involved in an accident. He broke his calf*both of the bones* and hurt his backbone. He was crippled cuz everytime he wants to move he will feel unbearable pain. It was sad, cuz my uncle is actually a very cheerful person. He likes to make silly jokes and is also the one who always sponsor the firecrackers whenever its Raya season. Unfortunately for him this year, he had to celebrate Raya on his bed...

Furthermore, Raya this year is also the first Raya ever without Wan Long*Wan's eldest sister. It felt different this year without her sometimes funny but tender advices. I remembered earlier this year, She adviced me to never bring home a foreign woman, it was after she learnt that I was accepted into a MARA program to further studies in the US. What made me sad was my thoughts for Tok Long. He does not want to live away from their old house eventhough he is living alone now. I guess the house reminded him of his late wife alot, therefore making the decision to stay there.

Both of the event above made me realise how lucky we are actually to be able to celebrate Raya along with our family. We should cherish our family members instead of arguing with them over silly things. Before we whine, think about all that we have. I believe, you will actually realise that you are luckier and is in a better situation that you thought you were. I remembered being sad about my knee and I whined about not being able to play most sports. 

A person reminded me that at least, I can walk and move around freely while most of the disabled people especially the crippled ones cannot even make even a small movement. That went deep. I realised that I'm actually a very lucky person and instead of whining, I should be grateful with what I have. That person will always have my gratitude :). 

So peeps, remember. If you think you're unlucky, there will always be people who are facing worse situation compared to you. Therefore Chin Up, Be Strong and Keep On Finding and Trying ways to overcome the walls and limitations in your life. InsyaAllah, its never too late for anything :).

Treasure

Assalamualaikum,

The kids were running all around the house. Eventhough I'm significantly older, I know that I don't have any power to stop them. The atmosphere was hectic, kinda chaotic too*Exageratingg here* There was no stopping these kids. I know, trust me I know. Every year, its like this. Both at kampung Ayah n Kampung Mak. The situation is quite the same each year haha. Somehow being the oldest grandchild in the family*in both sides*, it tests your patience and abilities alot more.

The next cousin younger than me is in Form2*belah ayah je* excluding my own siblings. In my mother's side of the family, the next one younger than me is Standard 3. Imagine my situation during Raya. I had to live and get along with kids all Raya long. Mind you, I dont hate kids. Its just that sometimes I feel kinda lonely not having any peers to talk and converse with. Well, I dont blame anyone lah about this. Its Allah's will. I know there will be something good underlying this. Infact, I quite enjoyed my Raya this year hehe*Yes, with all the kidsss*

My situation, it happened because My father's sister, the one next after him, conceived late and only after a few years, that they were gifted a daughter*which is a decade younger than me hha*. While in my mother's side, her sister married a bit late and therefore didn't have any child also until recently*6 years old now her first daughter*. So it made me, and my sister the oldest grandchildren in both families.

This situation molded me into someone who really cares for my friends*I believe*. I really look at my peers as family. "This guy as the brother who like to Dakwah people, while the other guy as the brother who likes to make fun of others"."This girl as the sister who talks alot and the other girl is the sister who is very secretive". My friends, are people who I could really be myself with. Peeps, the one you know throughout this years. Yep, thats the real me. Got nothing to hide haha.

Somehow, not having any peers in the family, made me appreciate my friends more. I really treasure them as the one who I could have fun with, whom I could rely on :D. I admit, sometimes I over react and over concern and I'm sorry for that. It really hurts when sometimes I'm ignored*eventhough you peeps were joking or deliberately doing it ngehh*. I felt like I'm not needed... haha lol what childish thinking. I think I have the phobia of scared of being ignored. Ok, whatever la adlannn.

Anyways, This year, 2015. I really enjoyed it up till now*the day I wrote this*. Yes, its not all rainbow and flowers, bad things happened too, but somehow I know that at the end, everything is going to turn out fine :). I'm really sorry for all of my wrongdoings peeps and families. Do forgive me, and if anything, just pm me okayyy. Also to my family, Its been quite the Raya celebration hhee. Thank you for making my last Raya in Malaysia memorable. To both Peeps and Family, thank you for all the Treasures you have left me with :). Selamat Hari Raya to everyone.